今晚，就让我痛哭好吗？对不起，我不是故意再你面前哭，我只是控制不住。折磨了3年到现在都还没结束，我恨你，为什么要给我那些东西，是要给我留恋吗？还是要我每次看到会想起你？你的承诺，到现在我都还忘不掉，全都是空头承诺。已经折腾了那么久，我好累。

Sorrowfully

Self-blaming after programming test. Why didn't study well before the test,why am i so slow-thinking to answer the questions. I've regretted what i did.

Called my mum and cried on phone,i know that's no excuses to cried for but,this is the only way i could expressed. It's not hard to find excuses to forgive myself,but i could't do it. I don't have the qualification to do so.

"Let it be the lesson,now you've to do is focus on your final paper and strive marks at there",he said.

Will always get comfort after talked with elder bro. Kor, thanks for encouraged,he's the man that always can calm,console me. The man i love talk to!

I have to work harder and harder,this is the last happened i told myself. To succeed,i must learn to overcome obstacles. I only hope i could pass the sem and able to pursue my PR course later.

night.

Guilty 99

Just back from supper with friends. First round we went to mamak. I ordered bihun goreng and teh tarik. After sit for one hour and half,yee and fatty want get some snacks,then we went to 7 eleven "shop" around. "Shop" kinda long there,because they choose snacks and biscuits like choose vegetable in pasar. i just stand beside and listened them recommended which snacks is "hao chi" -.-

Plan to go home after that. Walked till half way,saw the "lok lok" car still there,haven't close. Automatically,there is our second round. i ate 3 cucuk of lok lok,that's much more enough for me since a plate of bihun already grab inside my stomach :X

Have the guilty feeling while walking back hostel. The main reason why i can't slim down. :/

tomorrow have to go jogging,i duwan take supper anymore.Hope i can do it,maybe?　lol

my blog is still alive,please forgive my laziness :@@