最近很讨厌将的自己 为什么一直那么容易难过 那么情绪不稳定 负面情绪 请离我远远 唯有积极的人才能把开心带给身边的人 我不该埋怨 不该发脾气 做人应该就要知足
我已经很幸运 很幸福
倒数7天我就能回家 期待

在你出现的那一刻 我真的傻了
觉得自己错得很厉害 很离谱 很糟糕
为什么要那么绝情 那么冷血 为什么我会去伤害在乎我的人
我真的不被值得爱 我真的很烂
在你流泪的那一刻 我心很难过 很讨厌自己我不知道要怎样 我真的不知道要怎么做
除了内疚 对不起 我真的不知道还可以说什么 我心很麻 麻到我不懂得流泪
我真的无心要伤害你 对不起 这次我真的做错了  你可以恨我 好让我心里好过
我心里很难受 很不好过 当我看知道你下午再次来过 为什么要将 为什么不给我个好好的道别 说了至少要好好说再见的
对不起 是我的错
我知道我没有资格再说什么 我们的关系不再一样
可是我只想我还希望我们还能关心对方 我想做最爱你的朋友 我不想失去你 真的不想

痛哭起来了 日子还是照过 告诉自己明天会更好 谢谢身边疼爱我的人 我很珍惜你们

Cared

有什么事直接告诉我 好吗 当我每次听到消息从她口中得知时 心里有点难过 心想为什么你不能直接跟我说 可能是我想太多顾虑太多了
或许我有时的一举一动 说话的态度令你们不开心 对不起 我会改 我很在乎你们 我希望你们真的知道.

我们之间

你依然选择守护我 即使我们之间是已经不可能 你说我们关系没变 我们还是好朋友
当时我真的有股冲动想给你拥抱
我很开心有你 真的很开心有一个将的朋友
就让我们把过去埋葬在心里 做个永远的好朋友 谢谢你

想太多

电话那里头 沉默不语的那一刻
只听见呼吸的声音
我心突然跳得很快 我以为是你
眼泪流了 我知道是我想太多了

陌生

为什么认识却要扮到好像不认识
好像陌生人
突然觉得你很陌生 对你很不了解
我很不喜欢这种感觉
我真的不知道 自己是不是做错什么
明明是很好的我们 为什么突然变到这样

Sleepless

Another sleepless night.  Physically feel extremely tired, but mentally awake. It's suffering to me.
When I was lying on bed and closed my eyes, wondering why I just couldn't get into sleep. Trying few ways to hypnosis myself such like the oldway sheep counting, plays the soft music or have cup of milk. However these all couldn't help. :X
The feeling is like so so so torturing. I want back home because insomnia never will happens when I'm home :/

是什么让我遇见这样的你

我要疯了 为什么满脑子都是你
明知道不可能 为什么还要去抱一丝希望
讨厌这种感觉 这种每次情绪都因你而改变的感觉
我要回自由 教我该怎么忘了你

你还好吗？阿豪告诉我了,很震撼，听到那消息
我知道你定很难过，我知道你是多么的爱他
我很难过 很替你感到难过
你说你没事 我真的不懂要说什么
我不擅长安慰 我唯一能做的只希望你和K 能坚强
帮你们祈祷
他没离开 他的灵魂会在天堂看着你们 这是我相信的.

前几天没有一晚睡得好 明明好累却睡不着
那种感觉好难受 是我想太多了吗
今晚 一切结束了 答应自己不会再为了你而折磨自己
在家感觉永远是最好的 希望今晚能好好睡一觉 明早我能变回之前的为恩。

再一次

后悔 为什么要陷入进去
想回到从前 不想每天早上带着双肿眼睛
不想每晚都很难入睡 不想再去在乎

不要太依赖一个人 因为他随时都会离开你 永远都不要

愚蠢

只有愚蠢的人才会一次又一次去相信,去守候一段根本没结果的感情。
明知道是不可能,为什么还要去等待,还要骗自己一切只是时间问题
什么时候才要清醒 ,这一切都只是在做梦.....

Holidayyy

Finally, it's come to holiday time, having a one month sem break. PRAY hard that i can pass all the subj, i try  very hard in study, hope to get the satisfied result.

As previous post i posted, i failed a subject in last trimester, and need almost k to retake the subj
Therefore, i go to do part-time job as theme-park assistant at Genting for 2 weeks duration.
This time go with babii Hanna, so i guess it will be fun and won't get bored at there :>
come to find me if you come genting :p

12/12/12 was over, and this day is the day full of love, affection, romantic. My babii Hanna finally get a bf as she wished next year b'day will have a partner by side.  I told you, you will never never be *foreveralone*  See, now the wish came true. LOL



 never know that Jeremy can be so romantic so sweet to her,he played the song "情非得已"with his guitar, and talk a lengthy,romantic confessed to Hanna, and for sure the girl lum sei and accept him, what a lovely couple :P

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By the way, i felt sad of this.Just same like the feeling when my cousin had bf , because the feeling like lost a besties in life, she belongs to someone, and no longer belong to me anymore, sob sob TT

However, she told me that “我宁愿离开他，都不会离开你”, how brave that she's saying this in front of her boy and me! I get your words, and feel touch, seriously. zhen de hen ai ni <3 :p=":p" div="div">

Off to genting next wednesday, deeply appreciate the day spent at home, especially with my brother. He's going to PLKN next month, I really don't want he leave us, he leave home :(

I scare he don't know how to protect himself, i scare he get bully aikss... hopefully that, he get underweight of his bodycheck, and not qualified to attend the camp, HAHHAHAHAHA

Post till here, is time to sleep , night :P

IMY. 

一个人

一个人在家的感觉真寂寞，落空
因为muet 考试迟放，missed 了火车
因为弟弟是 flower boy,所以家人都来不及等我回来,就去了kl 出席表姐婚礼
回到家一个人，还真的是有点害怕
一个人在一个那么大的双层屋子，还真的以有点多余

今天的muet writing很死，真的不知道自己在乱写什么
时间不够，left last 15 minutes and i'm still writing 3rd paragraph
can you imagine how was the situation that time? rushing siaooo larhh :/
haihh, how should I improve my writing skills ?



最近总是想太多，真的要好好自我反省，别去想些不可能的事，好吗？
不可能的事，就别再去烦..

random selca :p night <3 p="p">

我可以

可以忍住一切，把一切埋藏。既然说了，就要做到
不要那么在乎，可不可以？
可不可以微笑的去看待一切？
学会爱自己，别再让自己堕落，现在读书才是最重要的
爱护自己，好吗?

First Experienced

This post go to blog about my life during the sem break. All is the first experienced in my life...

First time doing a part-time job as promoter during my one month sem break.
It's not easy to do a part-time job, went home late and have to wake up early in the next day, effing lack of sleep.
But of course, i have no regrets in doing this, atleast i gain some extra pocket money,i can use self-earn money to change my broken fon finally :)
thanks to babe yeexian for guiding me! miss the time we joke and fool around :/ 

one of the working benefits is able to meet new friends! miss you all :'>

The very first time been in Movida@sunway giza here. It's seriously freaking high, all dance with the loud&high music, i myself do not know how to dance, just shake shake the body and cheer along LOL
p/s: we do not really get in drunk :3



11th of Oct, the day of releasing result, and this is also the worst day ever in my life. I failed a subject, Introduction to Advertising.  First experienced the feelings of failure. It's so unfair , why most of them can pass, only certain ppl of us failed in this subject. The exam question totally out of syllabus, totally out of scope, i had try my best to wrote down the answer, i write down what i had read, write down all the answer based on my common sense, but ends up fail.
Had make a complaint about the irresponsible lecturer, went to look for Dean of faculty, the result couldn't be change, he told. But he will take action on the f**k irresponsible lecturer..
Had slumped down for few days, get drunk on myself by drinking wine, cried for few times, refuse to accept the fact. I
 had been a failure in my life. Plan to withdraw, giving up on study, but was forbidden by parents.
I wonder should i continue in study, or should i just stop at here by not wasting time and money.
Till my dad told me not to giving up on halfway, not to worry about the retake fees, he'll settle all the payment if my loan  ptptn is not enough.
I began to weep after i heard this. They didn't  ever scold me a single word, yet they still try to comfort me. (我真的很糟糕）
I know giving up is always not an option.
Thanks a lot to my lovely sister who concern,encourage me not to giving up.
Himmiko, chong, hanna, swen and candy.. great that have you all, truthfully grateful.

Nobody is a successor if they aren't a failure, i'll forever remember this.

BURST

A short update post here,

After final exam finish, the next day went back to BSD for doing a part-time job

Busy working with selling mooncake at Sunway Giza. 

Work for 12 hours++, have to wake up early in the morning 8.30 am, back home already around 11 pm.

This cycle of life have to hold till end of month :/  (为了钱，就忍忍吧）

anyone who want to buy mooncake, please heading to giza mall ya ^_______^

i'm selling Tai Thong（大同月饼), 30% discount available lol 

quite surprised when i saw my brother pang hold a cup of drink heading to my kiosk,
thanks a lot, this is really nice flavour, the first time try this Gongcha :P 

我们的星空

刚在线看完这部电影《星空》

没那些comment说到看到会哭，看一次哭一次的程度

只能说这部电影很有意思

它是关于童年经历，爱情的故事

一部感动，听得见心跳，不妨一看的电影

男女主角都很棒，男的帅，女的美 :P

他们才15岁，就能演到这么棒了！

男的：林晖闵 

女的：徐娇

很帅！

还没看的不妨可以去看一看，看完后心里定会有说不出的感觉

看完　这部电影，你将想起曾经也有那样一个人，让你不顾一切地产生惊人的能量，无论如何，要和他一起去冒险，看看这世界的美好…

你上次看星星，是什么时候？人之间的爱，会消失吗？你觉得生命的忧伤会有美好的结局吗？《星空》会让你聆听内心的答案。

再放手之前，能握多紧，就握多紧。渐渐的我们长大后，也开始了各自的感情。却没有明白一点，对于爱来说，并不会一直都是那么的完美，总会有吵架的时候。艰难的时期总会到来，那么在我们决定放手之前就应该能握多紧，就握多紧。握紧我们彼此各自的爱，才会度过爱情的冰冻期。只是，渐渐明白了这一点的时候，当初的爱情却早已小时不见了。是自己太早放了手，还是自己没有握紧，已经被深深的悔恨淹没在了那些回忆中了。也许，这也是成长的代价吧。

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Delete all those unhappy, sadness,painful memory

i want to become a better me.

Sorry to those my friends, always read the crap&shitty emotional post that i had posted previously.

SORRY 

Begin from today, my blog will post some daily life of me, no more about previous relation, no more emo post, no more crap,no more rubbish stuff!

I'm being busy with study recently, fighting with final. 

Intro to mass comm. is today paper, is consider easy, because all the tips given were exactly came out, 

love Sir Khairul&Ms.Shamini "muaxmuax" <3 p="p">

However, got few question i still unable to answer..shit me,regret why i didn't memorize properly "__"

Nevertheless, there are two more papers to go, have to study hard and  put more effort on these two papers, because don't have any tips given arhhh T________T

GAHYOU LARH!

RANDOM SHOOTING#
after had a night jogging with babii Hanna
want to shake away the fats, at the same time prepare for coming nike run :O

heartyou,babii, thanks always be with me when i need someone to accompany by, though you 're not really willing to. lol
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