Holidayyy

Finally, it's come to holiday time, having a one month sem break. PRAY hard that i can pass all the subj, i try  very hard in study, hope to get the satisfied result.

As previous post i posted, i failed a subject in last trimester, and need almost k to retake the subj
Therefore, i go to do part-time job as theme-park assistant at Genting for 2 weeks duration.
This time go with babii Hanna, so i guess it will be fun and won't get bored at there :>
come to find me if you come genting :p

12/12/12 was over, and this day is the day full of love, affection, romantic. My babii Hanna finally get a bf as she wished next year b'day will have a partner by side.  I told you, you will never never be *foreveralone*  See, now the wish came true. LOL



 never know that Jeremy can be so romantic so sweet to her,he played the song "情非得已"with his guitar, and talk a lengthy,romantic confessed to Hanna, and for sure the girl lum sei and accept him, what a lovely couple :P

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By the way, i felt sad of this.Just same like the feeling when my cousin had bf , because the feeling like lost a besties in life, she belongs to someone, and no longer belong to me anymore, sob sob TT

However, she told me that “我宁愿离开他，都不会离开你”, how brave that she's saying this in front of her boy and me! I get your words, and feel touch, seriously. zhen de hen ai ni <3 :p=":p" div="div">

Off to genting next wednesday, deeply appreciate the day spent at home, especially with my brother. He's going to PLKN next month, I really don't want he leave us, he leave home :(

I scare he don't know how to protect himself, i scare he get bully aikss... hopefully that, he get underweight of his bodycheck, and not qualified to attend the camp, HAHHAHAHAHA

Post till here, is time to sleep , night :P

IMY. 

一个人

一个人在家的感觉真寂寞，落空
因为muet 考试迟放，missed 了火车
因为弟弟是 flower boy,所以家人都来不及等我回来,就去了kl 出席表姐婚礼
回到家一个人，还真的是有点害怕
一个人在一个那么大的双层屋子，还真的以有点多余

今天的muet writing很死，真的不知道自己在乱写什么
时间不够，left last 15 minutes and i'm still writing 3rd paragraph
can you imagine how was the situation that time? rushing siaooo larhh :/
haihh, how should I improve my writing skills ?



最近总是想太多，真的要好好自我反省，别去想些不可能的事，好吗？
不可能的事，就别再去烦..

random selca :p night <3 p="p">

我可以

可以忍住一切，把一切埋藏。既然说了，就要做到
不要那么在乎，可不可以？
可不可以微笑的去看待一切？
学会爱自己，别再让自己堕落，现在读书才是最重要的
爱护自己，好吗?

First Experienced

This post go to blog about my life during the sem break. All is the first experienced in my life...

First time doing a part-time job as promoter during my one month sem break.
It's not easy to do a part-time job, went home late and have to wake up early in the next day, effing lack of sleep.
But of course, i have no regrets in doing this, atleast i gain some extra pocket money,i can use self-earn money to change my broken fon finally :)
thanks to babe yeexian for guiding me! miss the time we joke and fool around :/ 

one of the working benefits is able to meet new friends! miss you all :'>

The very first time been in Movida@sunway giza here. It's seriously freaking high, all dance with the loud&high music, i myself do not know how to dance, just shake shake the body and cheer along LOL
p/s: we do not really get in drunk :3



11th of Oct, the day of releasing result, and this is also the worst day ever in my life. I failed a subject, Introduction to Advertising.  First experienced the feelings of failure. It's so unfair , why most of them can pass, only certain ppl of us failed in this subject. The exam question totally out of syllabus, totally out of scope, i had try my best to wrote down the answer, i write down what i had read, write down all the answer based on my common sense, but ends up fail.
Had make a complaint about the irresponsible lecturer, went to look for Dean of faculty, the result couldn't be change, he told. But he will take action on the f**k irresponsible lecturer..
Had slumped down for few days, get drunk on myself by drinking wine, cried for few times, refuse to accept the fact. I
 had been a failure in my life. Plan to withdraw, giving up on study, but was forbidden by parents.
I wonder should i continue in study, or should i just stop at here by not wasting time and money.
Till my dad told me not to giving up on halfway, not to worry about the retake fees, he'll settle all the payment if my loan  ptptn is not enough.
I began to weep after i heard this. They didn't  ever scold me a single word, yet they still try to comfort me. (我真的很糟糕）
I know giving up is always not an option.
Thanks a lot to my lovely sister who concern,encourage me not to giving up.
Himmiko, chong, hanna, swen and candy.. great that have you all, truthfully grateful.

Nobody is a successor if they aren't a failure, i'll forever remember this.

BURST

A short update post here,

After final exam finish, the next day went back to BSD for doing a part-time job

Busy working with selling mooncake at Sunway Giza. 

Work for 12 hours++, have to wake up early in the morning 8.30 am, back home already around 11 pm.

This cycle of life have to hold till end of month :/  (为了钱，就忍忍吧）

anyone who want to buy mooncake, please heading to giza mall ya ^_______^

i'm selling Tai Thong（大同月饼), 30% discount available lol 

quite surprised when i saw my brother pang hold a cup of drink heading to my kiosk,
thanks a lot, this is really nice flavour, the first time try this Gongcha :P 

我们的星空

刚在线看完这部电影《星空》

没那些comment说到看到会哭，看一次哭一次的程度

只能说这部电影很有意思

它是关于童年经历，爱情的故事

一部感动，听得见心跳，不妨一看的电影

男女主角都很棒，男的帅，女的美 :P

他们才15岁，就能演到这么棒了！

男的：林晖闵 

女的：徐娇

很帅！

还没看的不妨可以去看一看，看完后心里定会有说不出的感觉

看完　这部电影，你将想起曾经也有那样一个人，让你不顾一切地产生惊人的能量，无论如何，要和他一起去冒险，看看这世界的美好…

你上次看星星，是什么时候？人之间的爱，会消失吗？你觉得生命的忧伤会有美好的结局吗？《星空》会让你聆听内心的答案。

再放手之前，能握多紧，就握多紧。渐渐的我们长大后，也开始了各自的感情。却没有明白一点，对于爱来说，并不会一直都是那么的完美，总会有吵架的时候。艰难的时期总会到来，那么在我们决定放手之前就应该能握多紧，就握多紧。握紧我们彼此各自的爱，才会度过爱情的冰冻期。只是，渐渐明白了这一点的时候，当初的爱情却早已小时不见了。是自己太早放了手，还是自己没有握紧，已经被深深的悔恨淹没在了那些回忆中了。也许，这也是成长的代价吧。

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Delete all those unhappy, sadness,painful memory

i want to become a better me.

Sorry to those my friends, always read the crap&shitty emotional post that i had posted previously.

SORRY 

Begin from today, my blog will post some daily life of me, no more about previous relation, no more emo post, no more crap,no more rubbish stuff!

I'm being busy with study recently, fighting with final. 

Intro to mass comm. is today paper, is consider easy, because all the tips given were exactly came out, 

love Sir Khairul&Ms.Shamini "muaxmuax" <3 p="p">

However, got few question i still unable to answer..shit me,regret why i didn't memorize properly "__"

Nevertheless, there are two more papers to go, have to study hard and  put more effort on these two papers, because don't have any tips given arhhh T________T

GAHYOU LARH!

RANDOM SHOOTING#
after had a night jogging with babii Hanna
want to shake away the fats, at the same time prepare for coming nike run :O

heartyou,babii, thanks always be with me when i need someone to accompany by, though you 're not really willing to. lol
<3>

心情很复杂，突然没心情读书
为什么还要在意，为什么还要自己挖苦
星期四考试，好像得到你的祝福
可是我知道不可能

其实早已经结束，全只是我的问题

为什么不走

爱，你为什么不走.

情绪可以不要那么容易被影响吗？

Over& Passed

Today, finally settled the event-hosting presentation, and there will be having one more presentation to go. This week is week 13, and this marks that we're approaching towards the end of semester. Two more weeks to go, and we're facing to final. And yet, i haven't start study at all T_____T

Gonna prepared and turn on my study mood start from today.

12-hours ago, my mind was interrupted by someone,  can't sleep well all the night, heart was painful when i get to know the answer. Sometimes, it's better to ignore what your question mark on your mind, it's better than don't know anything at the beginning. Fully,deeply thanks of your cruelness ,after the harsh experience, you let me grow a little bit up again, let me know that it's nothing to remain at the point.

沒有什麼東西是不能放手的。所有的哀傷、痛楚，所有不能

放棄的事情，不過是生命裡的一個過渡，你跳過了，就可以

變得精彩。BY 张小娴 

人类

有人的地方，就会有是非的存在
在这个世界上，会遇到很多人，什么人都有
每次自己要放聪明去做自己
我不会诠释，我不善于表达，我是很容易生气，很小气
我知道这是我的缺点，我试着去改进
但是，请别在我面前摆那些脾气，我不会因为你生气，而去哄你，迁就你，相反地我会说出我自己的看法，对的我会说，认识我的朋友都知道
我不会为了要讨好你，而迁就你

有时候做人，真的不能太表露自己真意，因为你真心对待未必会换来真实的心

为什么要自讨苦吃，看了心情很承重，很无奈
我为什么会那么白痴，那么的愚蠢去理会这些不关我的事情
心里好不舒服，跑步回来以为心情会放松点，可是都没有
不是说过不在乎了吗？为什么心里还是会介意
不要太在意一个人，可能在他心里，你什么都不是
可不可以不要再那么执着，不要再那么纠缠，不要半途而废
自己现在很好，真的很好
心里的难受，只有自己能承受
眼泪在打转，一直很努力告诉自己，不要再为不珍惜你的人流一滴眼泪，忍下来，我一直都在忍下来

HEART PAIN

Why am i so unlucky, SO BAD SO SUI. Lot of bad things happened on me. I can't sleep well at night, because all the night kena bite by mosquito. Most terrible is my hair problem! My heart fully deeply pain have to forced to have a haircut due to.....................................................

Sighh, 3 inches of my hair have been cut, no more curly wave long hair.

long hair that time

after get a haircut

The Awesome Famine Countdown

The first experienced join the camp, the first experience without eating foods and facebook for 30-hours. I feel the hunger. It's really suffering. There are almost 1 billion children who suffering from hunger. They live in a condition without enough food, and most of them are malnutrition.

From this event, the purpose is raise up money to help the children and communities living in poverty.

I'm really touched when i saw the video taken at the poor country. I feel so lucky, I feel so grateful for what I have :')

You'll be so inspire if you have join, seriously.

We have to work together, show them our affection and caring Let's us together make the change, make the difference, help the children who in need, bring hope and better life to them. 

By the way, there are lot of celebrities came to support the event, and one of the famous celebrities is Wang LeeHom,he's so handsome, so fantastic, so lengzai 99!! No more hunger feeling when I saw him. my cure,my husband  xD

All the pictures will upload on Fb, feel free can go to have a look :)

next year must join again!

SAY NO TO HUNGER, NO MORE HUNGER AMONG THEM!

感恩

This year birthday is the best I had ever. Thanks for the surprise, present, wishes box, b'day cards, cakes and all the wishes, thanks for everything, i sincerely appreciate these a lot. Thank for celebrated with me, thanks for you guys are being my side, and I'm not alone , you guys made my day, you know? i'm so in love with you all, my friends   :)

今年，你没在我生日那天祝福我，那种等待落空的感觉，难免会失望。你是忘了，还是故意不祝福我？你之前提早的祝福是已就算了嘛？谢谢你的绝情，谢谢你的眼泪，让我相信你是爱过我。 你，我是永远不会忘记，就让我们把这一切当成回忆...

请你，消失

明明不爱了，明明已经不在乎了，为什么还要再对我说出那些关心我的屁话
在我最需要你的时候，你能不理我
现在要等到生病的这个时候，你才会关心我
 我不知道为什么我看了后，我会痛哭
你的关心，会不会已经太迟了？

即使多么的思念，我也不会再让自己泛贱

抽痛

我的右脚从昨晚跑步回来变的很痛，感觉上muscle clamp! 一直在抽着我的脚劲。 以为是我太多天没跑才会将，刚旁晚去跑时，脚更痛，痛的走路都要一拐一拐。我很担心，星期日还要跑UTAR RUN, 我真的不想错过

现在感觉上要生病了，身体感觉慢慢发烫。 担心因为脚劲痛才导致发烧

保佑我，希望明天会好，我真的不想错过

count on me

Countdown,there are 10 more days to go. Don't waste time on someone that don't appreciate you, there is no more next time, everything ends up now.

回不去的从前

我真的不懂的伪装，祝福你，我的心很痛。你太爱你自己，你能同时爱上很多人，你好玩，你不想让自己孤单，所以你选择去逃避面对现实。是我无能，还是你残忍，为什么我不能爱上别的人，为什么你能而我却作不到 今晚，让我再怀念从前的我们，最后一次，我的眼泪控制不住. 我不要你的怜悯，你的同情，请你对我绝情，我心才会死，请你离开我的世界可以没有，我真的很累 哭过了，伤过了，痛过了，我已经承受够了，请你放过我。今年，我不需要再什么愿望，我只希望你能安静地让我度过。我想回家，想回去。我好想念我妈，我不想再一个人在宿舍。 一个人时，思念才会不停的折磨
时间能不能停下来，我真的不想再这样痛下去

Make it better

I was weak to think,to speak. I had a phobia in public speaking. This is proven. 

Today, i was so embarrassing. Ms.Diong called out my name and want me to deliver an impromptu speech during in lecture class. I was so afraid and nervous. I barely can hear the beating of my heart and that time i feel like duwan to admit i'm weiern. The title of speech is advertising. She want me to start without give me any seconds to think about. I talked little, talked the function of av,talking crap in front. I was totally blank,i have no idea what to talk, what to share. I was standing in front and starring to my friend to look for help. After few mins, the lecturer give me some suggestion and comment my speech. She want me to sit back and will call me out again afterwards. GG arhh    "_______" why still want me out again? want me to embarrass one more time?

After i sit back, i started to think what to say later, and ask idea from friend. That time,my heart was jumping fast still, even though i get back to my place, i can't concentrate what is the next ppl talking about, I'm just too too worry later how i should to deliver my speech. By the way,towards the end of class, she didn't call me out, thanks god, that time only my breathing is going normal >___<

Last time, when i was studying in science,there are tons of report need to write, and now I chg to PR,there are a lot of presentation and assessment waiting for me. Okayy,well  i can make a conclusion here, every course have their difficulty, and as a learner, we can't escape from all these.

 

Have to learn,read,speak more begins from now. I must overcome this obstacle. MUST!

Turn over

Today, the first day of July,time flies, now have been in July,this indicates that day is coming soon,I can't be avoid,escape of the day coming. I've to face the reality,I've been abandoned. I know you will not come on that day,you always can't keep your words,and I'm the idiot one who always choose to believe.
Let it go be,only by fully experiencing the depth of pain,can we be healed from it and done with it. Every wounds will be recover,i believe it will fully recover by one day,and time is the best medicine to sweep everything away. 


Sorry, to my sister who worry about me. Don't worries,i'm being fine,i'm trying to be tough. If you really want me to be good,please keep all your question in mind. I know you may be wondering and curious what happened over these few days actually. But,please, if you really want me get well, don't ask me any single question, silence is the best way to help me in this. I'm just too tired of talk about it, and i don't want to mentioned any things that about him again. 


And sorry for my childish,foolish attitudes,I apologize for my for being so rude,i shouldn't say that words,shouldn't speak loudly to you. Mum,sorry. I love you.

The ring, the silver ring that you gave me, I won't put on as necklace anymore. Have to walk out from you at this moment, never step in and let you control my emotional again..never ever.

in a moment he was gone, and I swear,I'll  never turn back to look for you anymore.....

以为妈妈是最了解我，最懂我，原来不是。刚跟妈吵架，什么都不懂，就说我乱花钱，我有吗？你都不知道我为了省钱，我晚上都没出去吃，都没叫外卖，我只吃饼干或水果，而你什么都不懂就一口咬定我乱花钱，说我吃好料！你根本都不懂我的钱用再那里，你没问，就将来说我，我的心有多么难受

新的一个月不是会进钱的吗，为什么一直要靠别人，如果别人不给，你们也不会给了是吗？为什么你们对AH KOR　不会将，反而对我将，你们重男亲轻女，你们让我觉得失去了可靠，让我觉得原来家人也不能依赖　我好累，亲人原来也不懂我，根本没有人能够体会，能够懂我....

翅膀

昨晚，我没哭，不在等不在焦急你的回复。今天，我想同了，我没必要去block你，没必要去逃避，我已经接受了这一切。这也不是第一次，我不会想以前那样逃避，缩退。

两年后的心脏比以前强大了，不会再哭的死去活来。 

很安慰，你没跟我解释，你没有要反驳我所说的一切，因为解释就是掩饰，也证明你默认了一切，就如两年前。希望她是真的比我还爱你，我会学着放弃，慢慢放下这一切

眼泪要掉时，就抬起头来，告诉自己别再为他流泪。 

你就是我的翅膀，这是那天我说的，我真的曾经认为是。

倒不了

我希望时间能倒退，一切事情从没发生过。明知道你是将的人，为什么一次又一次会给你机会，会给你一次又一次的来伤我。 好不容易，伤口刚痊愈，而你现在又再撕裂我的伤口。天真的我以为你已经改了，已经为我改变了，当时你说的那句你喜欢，那句话真的融入了我的心里，我没想到，原来一切只是假象，你说的，你承诺的，为什么要像两年前那样骗我？我真的有那么好玩吗，那么容易被整，那么部让你来珍惜吗？为什么你一定要选我？为什么你连那一点的尊严都部给我保留？我真的很失败，很烂，作女生作到那么没尊严，真的烂透了！既然那么爱，就别轻易放弃，我告诉自己，要体谅你，可是你从来没顾及我的感受。踏错了第一步，就已经预料了后果会怎样，是我自己拿来的，我心甘情愿去承受

Fully grateful

Tonight, I went to pasarmalam with yeehong and loo after finished jogging. At first,I dun feel like going,but since yee ask me to pui her,so i just followed up. The black sugar soya is the drinks I always will buy at pm. It's really nice to drink,super nice. 

She told me a lot of her childhood memories when we walked back. She told me about how she miss her grandpa and how she spend the day when with grandpa. My heart was fill with sadness after i listened. Tear was dripping. I was very grateful. I never experienced the feeling of losing my family member. I just feel so sad with what she said. Luckily,she's tough and strong enough. She is the girl which won't tears easily. I know you do miss your ahgong, and i  just wanna to tell you that you can find me anytime if you need someone to talk to, or you just need a listener. 

I'm really with what i have now,i will appreciate all the people which is surround me. Sincerely..

I'm crazy in these few days. I always brush my teeth before my dinner. And after dinner,i forget to brush my teeth again. What the hell am i doing? lol

please wake up from dream,dream will not be come true as what you always wish.

无能

我很容易对你有幻想，很容易会误会的人。如果你不想让我误会，请你对我保持距离，清楚知道自己对我说什么。你的语气，你的关心，真的让我难以捉摸。是朋友的关心吗？或许是我想太多了，我不该怪你说你没资格，对不起。只是说真的，我真的无法把你当朋友，我已经很努力，我想我们一辈子都当不了朋友。我真的无法和曾经伤害过我的男生打朋友招呼，你以前每一次的残忍，每一次的欺骗，真的让我很痛苦，让我好了都会有裂痕的迹象。

如果当初出轨的人是我，这一切或许都会不同，这一下，我们一定能当朋友，可是，没有如果....

如果你爱我，你会来找我。

我知道你没有，我很清楚知道你没有。

Dark in mood

Today,morning,while i'm sleeping,mum steped into my room and told me that grand-uncle had passed away.  I was awaked.  My grand-uncle (that is my grandpa's brother),i called him "4 shu gong" was a diabetic and his kidney is malfunction. Last month,he get injured his toes by accidentally  kicked a rock. His wound couldn't recover and to save his life,doctors amputated his leg. After amputation,his body getting worst as the day passed. His immune system is getting weaker. Yesterday,i went to visit him with my grandma. I was so heart pain when i saw him. He breathed by using the trachea tube. His family,daughters sons,all came to see his last face. All of us already prepared that he'll go at anytime. And today he leaves.

I saw all of his grandchild were praying for him in funeral just now. I feel like crying. At that moment,i also feel comfort because i never self attend in funeral,means i never get involved for pray. My dad side grandparents are still here,same as my mum that side too.

Life is short,we must appreciate everything that surround us. I believed life after death. I know he's watching us in heaven,in another world. This may good for him,atleast he can live in the world that without any medication and medicine. He had reached a better place, i just know it.

                                                 

 Rest in peace,i'll miss you with all my heart.

珍惜一切

我知道我这个样子很欠打

刚看完on call36,我知道现在才看是比较慢。 不能说这部戏好看,我能说戏里演得跟现实生活中很真,教会了很多要珍惜生命,珍惜家人,朋友,以及一切一切。

真地被这部戏给弄哭慘了,我真的很讨厌我哭给她看到,她每次问我是不是癫了？ -.-

不要每次埋怨生活中的不满，我们必须要知道，能活在这世上已经是一种庆幸.

我领悟了,我不会再埋怨,如果我真的失败了,我会重来,不会再颓废。

我相信他的离去定弄哭了很多人

在戏里，我最爱的演员不是一件头，而是他，BEN :33

对不起，如果我让你们失望了。今天，眼泪又再折磨我。心里的难过和担忧真的不能不去想，我好后悔，真的好后悔，为什么我每次都那么不怕死。打电话跟哥哥发泄，懊恼自己，为什么没认真对待，为什么每次事情发生了，我才懂得怕。哭肿了双眼，哽咽地告诉他未来一切都会不一样，如果我失败。我好辛苦，我不想再继续，我可不可以就到这里停下，我不想再承受那些压力，压逼得我好痛苦


如果我真的失败，我知道这是我得到的报应。

奇迹可不可以出现，我不想抱着担忧的心情过日子。

今晚，就让我痛哭好吗？对不起，我不是故意再你面前哭，我只是控制不住。折磨了3年到现在都还没结束，我恨你，为什么要给我那些东西，是要给我留恋吗？还是要我每次看到会想起你？你的承诺，到现在我都还忘不掉，全都是空头承诺。已经折腾了那么久，我好累。

Sorrowfully

Self-blaming after programming test. Why didn't study well before the test,why am i so slow-thinking to answer the questions. I've regretted what i did.

Called my mum and cried on phone,i know that's no excuses to cried for but,this is the only way i could expressed. It's not hard to find excuses to forgive myself,but i could't do it. I don't have the qualification to do so.

"Let it be the lesson,now you've to do is focus on your final paper and strive marks at there",he said.

Will always get comfort after talked with elder bro. Kor, thanks for encouraged,he's the man that always can calm,console me. The man i love talk to!

I have to work harder and harder,this is the last happened i told myself. To succeed,i must learn to overcome obstacles. I only hope i could pass the sem and able to pursue my PR course later.

night.

Guilty 99

Just back from supper with friends. First round we went to mamak. I ordered bihun goreng and teh tarik. After sit for one hour and half,yee and fatty want get some snacks,then we went to 7 eleven "shop" around. "Shop" kinda long there,because they choose snacks and biscuits like choose vegetable in pasar. i just stand beside and listened them recommended which snacks is "hao chi" -.-

Plan to go home after that. Walked till half way,saw the "lok lok" car still there,haven't close. Automatically,there is our second round. i ate 3 cucuk of lok lok,that's much more enough for me since a plate of bihun already grab inside my stomach :X

Have the guilty feeling while walking back hostel. The main reason why i can't slim down. :/

tomorrow have to go jogging,i duwan take supper anymore.Hope i can do it,maybe?　lol

my blog is still alive,please forgive my laziness :@@

开始怀疑自己是不是已经19岁

为什么我还能那么幼稚的去发脾气

我既然去怨我哥哥，怒骂他是个自私的人

我还对着我爸妈讲电话时发脾气

妈好声好气跟我谈，哄我，我还嫌他们偏帮，盖他的电话

到最后，自己却哭了起来

对不起，我对我幼稚的行为感到很抱歉，我当时真的无法控制自己的情绪，对不起。

脑袋闪过好多你之前多我说过的话。我以为我变了，变得更坚强，更懂事，可是原来这两年来我都没改变，我还是以前的那个我，那个一点都不成熟的我。

这几天晚上，我都被眼泪折腾了，才睡着。你曾说和牛奶能帮助入睡，原来这真的是心理作用。

昨晚，我一直在等你的祝福，到现在我都还在等。曾经付出的真心，到最后只换来泪跟痛。

Anti-study

BOO! i'm so lazy to study now! Test is coming soon,and me still spent most of the hours in front of computer. I felt guilty. Just now i was trying do some math questions,but i was stuck in half way. Do until siao,damn beh song :@ anyone can teach me? i really regret why didn't pay attention during lecture class. I need someone to guide me now :(

Eating 麦芽糖 that given by yeehong. It's nice but imba sticky! :3

Going to continue reading my novel,just left few pages :D

I promised after finish reading,i'll study! :/

get away from my face

Blackhead around my nose,using sexylook blackhead pore cleanser to clean it.

let face absorb some water,prevent it from dehydrate.

this i really can't tahan. my forehead and cheeks full of small pimples. makes me frustrated. Apply some snow cream ://

All i wish is my face can recover like last time,i just want back my smooth clean face! :((

一个人

我不想，真的好不想回去。今天初六，我已经回来了宿舍。家人全都回去了，roommate还没回，housemate也还没回，整栋宿舍就只有我一个人。觉得有少少恐怖，很不想呆在这里。

一个人的时候，我会想很多，想很多很多让自己情绪低落的事情。我知道有些事情根本不用去想，可是我就是控制不到。

我恨你，你说的全都是谎言，已经多少次了，这已经是第几次了，你一次又一次的利用谎言伤害我。为什么当初要对我许下承诺，可是最后却做不到。你一次又一次的令我失望。之前我选择去相信你说的话，我真的去信你对我说的话，以为你真的会来的。为什么？为什么你答应了又没行动？我心真的很痛，我知道你和两年前没变，你还是那个你，那个爱给我假希望的你。我真的对你好累了，别再对我回首了，别再让我一个人为你流泪，可以没有?

是我给你，给自己太大希望了，我相信你，可是到最后只是我受伤

除夕夜

新年快乐，可是比没什么快乐,除夕晚既然下起了雨。

我好想逃离你的手掌，新年新开始，别再去犹豫，好吗？

哭过就好了

答应自己今晚是最后一晚为你流泪。哭过了，就别再去想，别再折磨自己. 我想好好的爱护自己，我不想重复以前的生活. 别再自作多情，去想那些话到底可不可靠，那些年已经过去了。原谅他了，就放过自己。如果一个人真的爱你，会告诉你，你的生命比你对他的爱情更重要。曾经的拥有就足够了。

冷血

Fully grateful

Thanks god let me pass all the subjects. Never expect can get an A- for ecs(effective communication skills). At first,i just pray hard can pass then is pretty enough to me,i never never expect can get any Apple among the five subjects.*out of expectation*

My weakest subject > organic chem< i get B. My effort is no wasted :)

Quite satisfied with this sem result compared to last sem. One more semester to go then i can fly away from utar. HAHAHAHAHA

Weiern,gambateh :)

*wish all my friends pass the exam too,good luck*

你要幸福

孤单摩天轮。

love is the person you think about during the sad songs.

WOO WOO WOO

BSD,i'm backed! waiting to go shopping tml. Have to thanks my baby xiaoern,because of me,she's going to skip class tml. We two plan to go s.wang and timesquare on next early morning :DDD bags,clothes,shoes,here i'm coming! <3 <3

Yesterday went to restaurant sekmeychoy that located at Menjalara,ta have my favourite bak ku teh as dinner! the foods not bad and the price is also reasonable (Y)

my lovely cousins with me :)

yes,i knew im epic failed to act cute,just ignored my face and look at my cute little cousin ;S

Xiao ern being my camere girl :P

okay,blogged until here,i want watch drama sin>> forensic heroes 3<<< The drama is nice,but certain parts quite scary,luckily she's by my side,teehee! :>