翅膀

昨晚，我没哭，不在等不在焦急你的回复。今天，我想同了，我没必要去block你，没必要去逃避，我已经接受了这一切。这也不是第一次，我不会想以前那样逃避，缩退。

两年后的心脏比以前强大了，不会再哭的死去活来。 

很安慰，你没跟我解释，你没有要反驳我所说的一切，因为解释就是掩饰，也证明你默认了一切，就如两年前。希望她是真的比我还爱你，我会学着放弃，慢慢放下这一切

眼泪要掉时，就抬起头来，告诉自己别再为他流泪。 

你就是我的翅膀，这是那天我说的，我真的曾经认为是。

倒不了

我希望时间能倒退，一切事情从没发生过。明知道你是将的人，为什么一次又一次会给你机会，会给你一次又一次的来伤我。 好不容易，伤口刚痊愈，而你现在又再撕裂我的伤口。天真的我以为你已经改了，已经为我改变了，当时你说的那句你喜欢，那句话真的融入了我的心里，我没想到，原来一切只是假象，你说的，你承诺的，为什么要像两年前那样骗我？我真的有那么好玩吗，那么容易被整，那么部让你来珍惜吗？为什么你一定要选我？为什么你连那一点的尊严都部给我保留？我真的很失败，很烂，作女生作到那么没尊严，真的烂透了！既然那么爱，就别轻易放弃，我告诉自己，要体谅你，可是你从来没顾及我的感受。踏错了第一步，就已经预料了后果会怎样，是我自己拿来的，我心甘情愿去承受

Fully grateful

Tonight, I went to pasarmalam with yeehong and loo after finished jogging. At first,I dun feel like going,but since yee ask me to pui her,so i just followed up. The black sugar soya is the drinks I always will buy at pm. It's really nice to drink,super nice. 

She told me a lot of her childhood memories when we walked back. She told me about how she miss her grandpa and how she spend the day when with grandpa. My heart was fill with sadness after i listened. Tear was dripping. I was very grateful. I never experienced the feeling of losing my family member. I just feel so sad with what she said. Luckily,she's tough and strong enough. She is the girl which won't tears easily. I know you do miss your ahgong, and i  just wanna to tell you that you can find me anytime if you need someone to talk to, or you just need a listener. 

I'm really with what i have now,i will appreciate all the people which is surround me. Sincerely..

I'm crazy in these few days. I always brush my teeth before my dinner. And after dinner,i forget to brush my teeth again. What the hell am i doing? lol

please wake up from dream,dream will not be come true as what you always wish.

无能

我很容易对你有幻想，很容易会误会的人。如果你不想让我误会，请你对我保持距离，清楚知道自己对我说什么。你的语气，你的关心，真的让我难以捉摸。是朋友的关心吗？或许是我想太多了，我不该怪你说你没资格，对不起。只是说真的，我真的无法把你当朋友，我已经很努力，我想我们一辈子都当不了朋友。我真的无法和曾经伤害过我的男生打朋友招呼，你以前每一次的残忍，每一次的欺骗，真的让我很痛苦，让我好了都会有裂痕的迹象。

如果当初出轨的人是我，这一切或许都会不同，这一下，我们一定能当朋友，可是，没有如果....

如果你爱我，你会来找我。

我知道你没有，我很清楚知道你没有。

Dark in mood

Today,morning,while i'm sleeping,mum steped into my room and told me that grand-uncle had passed away.  I was awaked.  My grand-uncle (that is my grandpa's brother),i called him "4 shu gong" was a diabetic and his kidney is malfunction. Last month,he get injured his toes by accidentally  kicked a rock. His wound couldn't recover and to save his life,doctors amputated his leg. After amputation,his body getting worst as the day passed. His immune system is getting weaker. Yesterday,i went to visit him with my grandma. I was so heart pain when i saw him. He breathed by using the trachea tube. His family,daughters sons,all came to see his last face. All of us already prepared that he'll go at anytime. And today he leaves.

I saw all of his grandchild were praying for him in funeral just now. I feel like crying. At that moment,i also feel comfort because i never self attend in funeral,means i never get involved for pray. My dad side grandparents are still here,same as my mum that side too.

Life is short,we must appreciate everything that surround us. I believed life after death. I know he's watching us in heaven,in another world. This may good for him,atleast he can live in the world that without any medication and medicine. He had reached a better place, i just know it.

                                                 

 Rest in peace,i'll miss you with all my heart.

珍惜一切

我知道我这个样子很欠打

刚看完on call36,我知道现在才看是比较慢。 不能说这部戏好看,我能说戏里演得跟现实生活中很真,教会了很多要珍惜生命,珍惜家人,朋友,以及一切一切。

真地被这部戏给弄哭慘了,我真的很讨厌我哭给她看到,她每次问我是不是癫了？ -.-

不要每次埋怨生活中的不满，我们必须要知道，能活在这世上已经是一种庆幸.

我领悟了,我不会再埋怨,如果我真的失败了,我会重来,不会再颓废。

我相信他的离去定弄哭了很多人

在戏里，我最爱的演员不是一件头，而是他，BEN :33