Today,morning,while i'm sleeping,mum steped into my room and told me that grand-uncle had passed away. I was awaked. My grand-uncle (that is my grandpa's brother),i called him "4 shu gong" was a diabetic and his kidney is malfunction. Last month,he get injured his toes by accidentally kicked a rock. His wound couldn't recover and to save his life,doctors amputated his leg. After amputation,his body getting worst as the day passed. His immune system is getting weaker. Yesterday,i went to visit him with my grandma. I was so heart pain when i saw him. He breathed by using the trachea tube. His family,daughters sons,all came to see his last face. All of us already prepared that he'll go at anytime. And today he leaves.
I saw all of his grandchild were praying for him in funeral just now. I feel like crying. At that moment,i also feel comfort because i never self attend in funeral,means i never get involved for pray. My dad side grandparents are still here,same as my mum that side too.
Life is short,we must appreciate everything that surround us. I believed life after death. I know he's watching us in heaven,in another world. This may good for him,atleast he can live in the world that without any medication and medicine. He had reached a better place, i just know it.
Self-blaming after programming test. Why didn't study well before the test,why am i so slow-thinking to answer the questions. I've regretted what i did.
Called my mum and cried on phone,i know that's no excuses to cried for but,this is the only way i could expressed. It's not hard to find excuses to forgive myself,but i could't do it. I don't have the qualification to do so.
"Let it be the lesson,now you've to do is focus on your final paper and strive marks at there",he said.
Will always get comfort after talked with elder bro. Kor, thanks for encouraged,he's the man that always can calm,console me. The man i love talk to!
I have to work harder and harder,this is the last happened i told myself. To succeed,i must learn to overcome obstacles. I only hope i could pass the sem and able to pursue my PR course later.
Just back from supper with friends. First round we went to mamak. I ordered bihun goreng and teh tarik. After sit for one hour and half,yee and fatty want get some snacks,then we went to 7 eleven "shop" around. "Shop" kinda long there,because they choose snacks and biscuits like choose vegetable in pasar. i just stand beside and listened them recommended which snacks is "hao chi" -.-
Plan to go home after that. Walked till half way,saw the "lok lok" car still there,haven't close. Automatically,there is our second round. i ate 3 cucuk of lok lok,that's much more enough for me since a plate of bihun already grab inside my stomach :X
Have the guilty feeling while walking back hostel. The main reason why i can't slim down. :/
tomorrow have to go jogging,i duwan take supper anymore.Hope i can do it,maybe? lol
my blog is still alive,please forgive my laziness :@@
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